I'm Not Everything I Want to Be

Oct 3, 2024

1h 31m

★ 7.4

The story of the photographer Libuše Jarcovjáková

Overview

After the Soviet invasion of Czechoslovakia in 1968, Libuše Jarcovjáková, a young female photographer, strives to break free from the constraints of Czechoslovak normalization and embarks on a wild journey towards freedom, capturing her experiences on thousands of subjective photographs.

Genres

Documentary

Production Companies

Mischief Films

nutprodukcia

Somatic Films

Česká televize

ARTE GEIE

I'm Not Everything I Want to Be Trailers

Cast

Self - Photographer / Narrator (voice)

Libuše Jarcovjáková

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I'm Not Everything I Want to Be

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