Please Hold

Mar 8, 2025

1h 10m

★ 0.0

An Experimental Documentary

Overview

An experimental documentary engaging with decades of DIY activist media, two death bed/legacy videos, and the wisdom of many living AIDS workers, as we all sit together in one (changing) format, video—VHS, hi-8, digital, Zoom—to address these and other questions: How do neighborhoods, sweaters and scarves, videotapes and queer bars hold ghosts? How do we let them go?

Genres

Documentary

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Cast

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James Robert Lamb

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Juanita Mohammed Szczepanski

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Jih-Fei Cheng

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Marty Fink

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Pato Hebert

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Theodore Kerr

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Gavin Downie

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Elizabeth Koke

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Henry Szczepanski

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CHRISTEENE

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Alexandra Juhasz

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8.2

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10.0

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8.0

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Host

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3.6

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Peregrina

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6.7

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What if we changed viewpoints? "Bullying, our lives after" highlights the suffering of adults who were once bullied pupils. Ten, twenty or thirty years later, trauma is still present. Following Nathalie, Laurine and Samuel, this movie shows the long-term implications of bullying, pointing out a real failure of the educational institution and a major public health issue.

6.0

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